In many conversations and arguments I had with my smartest confidante and lover, we have repeatedly talked about how most (I said most, not all) Filipinos get easily star struck. Don't get me started with how crazy and obsessed Filipino fans can be. I mean who doesn't get glued on celebrities' porcelain skin, pearly whites and faces as small as my right palm? And our awe never stops with their perfectly sculpted figures, full breasts and insanely flat abs.
But the point of this post is the more common dilemma of Juans and Marias. WE GET INTIMIDATED WITH WHITE PEOPLE. Yes, engraved in our history are years of being under their control, and we got so used to it, that we feel inferior that we are smaller and darker. Why else would whitening products be so lucrative in the Philippines?
Just this morning, as I make my arabica coffee in the office, a really tall white guy was swinging cabinet doors one by one, and yes, because I was still sleepy, and because I'm not very helpful today, I didn't bother asking first and just went on with my business. We have a pantry lady anyways, so I just listened to their conversation which is really brief and one sided.
TALL WHITE GUY: "Hi, I wonder if you know where the glasses or cups or anything for water are?"
PANTRY LADY: (Mouth half open staring blankly at the white guy) "Ahhh, eehh."
I decided to intervene since I swear I heard a flat line. And it's not because she can't understand English, but merely because he's super tall, and super white with super pointed nose. Had it been a Filipino who asked her, it'll be a totally different story.
Is it just me, but why do we always get all clumsy and stuttered in the presence of foreigners? Why do we always treat them first class and be so apologetic about our country all the time? I remember how John Gokongwei Sr. asked a white guy to leave the country when he saw him insulting a female cabin crew. Why can't we be that assertive, protective and proud?
We live in a third world country, and we lack in so many things, but if we want to gain respect and equality, then it's high time we revisit our confidence and regard our nation and ourselves with a little more pride.